Where Did She Go?

Hello, readers. It's been about almost a year since I started this page. Why, do you ask, have I not written on it in the many months that passed? Well there is no cool story or tragic accident explained in the following few sentences, it was honestly just...life. The fall semester of my junior year, which is when I had this idea to begin with, life was a little bit of a struggle. School, as I'm sure many college students can attest to, got much harder so the stress levels where fluctuating in the high spectrum. My love life, one that I didn't really have a couple months before just got complicated all at once. The guy I was seeing from over the summer, who seemed to despise the word relationship, went behind my back and started seeing another girl. And surprise, surprise, ladies and gentlemen, the week after he ended it with me, she became his girlfriend. As I was getting over that, I started to develop feelings again for this friend of mine from school that I had sort of dated the previous semester. Any sort of relationship with someone who is basically your best friend can get messy if you are not both on the same page. And at the same time as I was trying to figure out those feelings, another guy who had come onto my radar near the end of the summer was slowly but surely finding himself a place in my interests. But alas all those stories are not for this post and we shall move on.

Finals finally arrived and they were the worst ones I ever had. Not cause I did terribly on them, but because my school messed up so badly with the scheduling that we were jumping from a final from 4-6 pm straight home to study for four hours to have potentially two the next day. All of my classmates in the civil engineering department were miserable and exhausted, so when they finally ended that Friday, my friends and I went to celebrate with lunch. That night my sister and I had decided to celebrate the start of our Christmas break with a Christmas movie in her room. The winter break was looking great ahead, especially with the predicted birth of my baby cousin the day before Christmas Eve. But something terrible happened. My mom wasn't feeling great that day, but we just thought it was because she was tired. But that night she couldn't breathe. We called the ambulance and they came and took her to the hospital. At 5 in the morning, my father called us, informing us that she had COVID. Now before you think anything much worse was about to happen, I can inform you that thankfully the doctors found that her lungs were actually clear and that she could go home in the morning. Long story short, that entire winter break entailed each person of my house hold getting COVID and having to quarantine together in the house. I will say though that that month was the most relaxed I have ever been, besides the two or three days I was affected with the COVID symptoms of course.

In the end of January, the second semester of Junior year began and with in a month I was both stressed beyond words and in a new, official relationship. Can you guess who with? If you guessed the new guy, you would be correct. He swooped in and inched his way into my heart bit by bit. That story will be for another time. March came and I turned 21 years old!!! After that my weeks sort of became a routine. Weekdays I went to classes and work. Weeknights from Monday through Thursday were dedicated to the hours of homework and studying my friend and I had to do. Friday and Saturday nights switched between one night with my boyfriend on a date or with his friends at the club and the other night was for my family. And lastly, Sunday, the day meant to be for rest, was spent doing homework, studying and preparing for the upcoming week. And that schedule took me quickly to the end of the semester, and within a blink of an eye it was summer.

I got into an internship in a construction and development firm for the summer and in the beginning I was quite nervous. But within a few weeks at the job site I loved it. It is ending this Wednesday, and for a job I thought I wasn't going to enjoy this summer, I'm really going to miss it and my team.

As in as short enough summary as I could, that has been my life this past year, and my reason for not being on here. Honestly, its not a good enough reason because I always give myself excuses for not committing to my writing. But no longer. I will try my best to stay dedicated to this page and to my love of writing as the weeks go on. Wish me luck, lovely readers!